31 December 2013 :)

here again, the last day of the year. this year seems too short to be true. I was hesitating to write this post as I didn't even feel like it is coming to an end. looking back this year, looking back the posts I had written, a tiny weeny bit of tears came to my eyes when I read the post about my Rongrong's proposal to me on 31 December 2012, the post about how the wait for PSLE results this year for my dear p6 class came about, how I finally hit my resolution for 2013 that was set last year - to achieve full class with no U graders or repeats. it was with the heartiest joy and pride that I send off my graduating class. Set several resolutions for the year and I guess somehow, one way or the other, I've fulfilled and achieved my resolutions :)

a brand new year awaits.

2014

it will be a year full of changes, of cuz, changes that lead me to another phase of my life. 

a brand new class of p5, weakest of the lot, but a class that I can't wait to work hand in hand with them to make miracles, again.

a new post of EL coordinator for upper primary. not sure of the responsibilities as yet, but pretty sure that as long as it is for pupils, I will work hard for it.

the year rongrong and I will get our new flat! definitely something that is massive, real and challenging - to set up a place where both of us belong, where we call it our home :)

to be going through a few months of preparations, leading up to our big day. wedding on 16 Nov 2014 :) it will be a day when I will be officially called Mrs Koh (actually I'm already legally Mrs Koh), a day onwards when I will have to live away from my parents and sister, a day when all my close family and friends will be present to witness the happiest day of my life :')

a year which I hope my school volleyball cca will have a bit of achievement, letting my boys shine a little among all the other ccas...

also a year which I may have to decide if I am going over Italy with my lao gong if his project is gonna drag till 2015. will see how it goes, till then, nobody knows :)

this list is a tad different from the resolutions that I've set in the previous few years. but it is with a whole new set of responsibilities and challenges that I'm looking forward to embrace and enter. entering into the next phase of my life, anxious, uncertain, eager and blessed. definitely hoping for the best in everything, good health for myself and all my family members, smooth-sailing in mine and Rongrong's and my siblings' careers, happiness and joy in my whole big family.

happy 4 years anniversary to my dearest rongrong! counting on to many years of anniversaries with you! <3

welcome, 2014 :)

recovering from my acl reconstruction surgery :)

did my first ever operation on 23 dec 2013..the eve of the Christmas Eve..this year Xmas was spent quite differently, very different actually. after my fall, had a surgery scheduled after my overseas trips to hongkong with my JC vb girls, followed by Italy to find my rongrong and came back with him... So came 23 dec when I first got wheeled into an operating theatre and had to undergo an op to reconstruct my anterior cruciate ligament. was a 3h op, of cuz I did not know anything but just slept through the whole op..was awakened by the nurses that they would be wheeling me back to my room and that was when I regained a bit of consciousness. saw my family members waiting for me in my room but was fighting to stay awake because of the anathesia. vomited twice that night as I tried to drink some water and milo but out came all the fluid and medicine that went in :X my first time experiencing such  a naseous effect due to the medicine but was glad the next day the effect was gone and I'm back to eating ;)

another one more day before I was discharged from the hospital on 26 dec :) am recovering well at home now. can't wait to regain my leg power and be back to school in one week's time! (hopefully!)

and through this mini ordeal, I experienced so much love from my family members..my mum and sisters, brother-in law and my especially my rongrong who accompanied me through the two nights slping in the hospital with me. and his brother and sister-in-law, sister and bro-in-law also made the trip down to see me :') felt so much love from my family...I am indeed a fortunate little being, showered with love from my hubby and his family and my family members! Love all of ya many many! <3

first trip to Italy...by myself! ;)

can't resist the temptation to document this trip down! My first trip to Italy on my own!!! hahaha..a bit excited and nervous at the same time :p haha..hope all goes well on the plane and I can't wait to hug my lao gong in 12 hours time! ✌️😊👍

PSLE result release 2013

it was with a heavy heart to school in the morning, only to find out that all the KPs were already sitting inside the staff lounge waiting for the results to be released. anxious as can be, I joined in the wait and just as the 15minutes felt like hours, the results were released when the clock struck 7.30am. Scrolling down the list from the first class, I was rather discouraged by the fact that I see aggregate score of 100plus in the second best class. next up my class..nobody can understand how I actually yelled hooray in my heart when I saw my girl cleared her exams...and to be honest those who sat in front of the com with me didn't really care nor congratulate me for it. and what makes the whole thing much more comforting is that my whole class cleared and all get promoted to secondary. that was all that I asked for in my first try teaching in p6. knowing how weak the pupils are, I didn't even know if they could create the miracle but they did. and how true it is to say that man is indeed greedy species, I did feel a little regretful for not being able to help pull up their marks a little bit more such that more of them can qualify for express stream. 

it is the last time I sat the whole class in front of me, full attendance and all in uniform. admin matters before I gave out all the results to them. I remained cool and it wasn't until the end when the girls came to me and said they wanted to hug me that my tears flowed out uncontrollably. and it was then the mixture of happiness and hardwork put in made me pour out how tired I really was this 10months before they finally sat for their examinations. my girls cried, their parents cried. the touching moment when my pupils said thank you to me for helping them clear their examinations brought puddles of tears out from my eyes. had never taken photos with a pair of crying eyes and tear-strained face but yes, with my pupils we took. the many hugs from all the worried mothers and pupils, we bade farewell.

and this marks the end of my p6 this year. looking back, I think it was really madness. the time spent, the sweat, the fatigue and all the scoldings for the class became sweet memories I have for this class. 

I will miss my class dearly...hope they can get into the secondary school that they want.

:')

at home...

tuesday. third day into my injury. didn't have to go anywhere for check up so didn't have to wake up early. slept till 9plus then woke up. ate bread and started to nua on sofa to play games..checked email and ah min called to go out with her and Van for lunch cum tea :) agreed readily though my mum was scolding..haha :p think I was really dying to go out. came back from Jcube, did a bit of catching up and updates from both of them and it was raining quite heavily too. was worried that my bandage would get wet but luckily ah min sheltered me to my lift area :) came back, took a nap and bathed. dinner and nua again..till Van texted me and told me she prayed for my recovery :) and Sarah, Maybelline and earn chi did too :) colleagues whom I seldom htht with showered me the concern and time to pray for me..deeply touched. not to mention other friends and even pupils and their parents texted..really warms my heart :') 

in my little capacity here, I also pray for my lao gong to be safe and sound in Italy..

pray for my close colleagues, friends and family all to stay well and healthy too..

may my tua peh kong hear my prayers too :))

second time :(

twisted knee. just when I thought this year will be the year when my team can outwin the other team, I had to get injured. didn't cry at all when I'm lying on the floor after the twist. but tears flowed down uncontrollably when I'm alone in the taxi with my lao gong. tears not due to pain, but tears due to the fear of not being able to play this year. 

and the tears kept rolling down...

please let me recover faster...

:'(

7 Sep 2013 - Our ROM <3

tomorrow, or should I say in a few hours time, will be the day I become Mrs Koh legally! :D Was full of anticipation and excitement preparing for this special day of ours... The start of a new phase of life together with him, my dearest rongrong! Though we are not staying together yet, I am looking forward to us being together, seeing each other everyday for the rest of our lives...

Love ya...

May our ROM goes smoothly tomorrow :)

she got to spoil it all :(

I hate to be complaining about school here but I was really, utterly and totally disappointed with the behavior of some seniors in the school. Please don't aim too high or wish to attain the senior teacher position when you are nowhere near with that ability to lead and inspire. you are nobody to me but some member who has to help out with the ob. first no comments were provided for me to improve on my lesson plan. second, you tried to be a smart alec to bring the ssd away when my lesson has not even completed. Obviously you didn't even read my lesson plan, let alone provide constructive feedback for me. don't tell me you can't differentiate the school's first bell and second bell for change of periods. I was in good time to end off my lesson, with a bit of time to show some of the group's work and then summarized what they have learnt, she choose to leave just before I could do that! WTF la!!!! Totally pissed. she thought I'm that lousy to not round off my lesson? She thought it was the end of my lesson??? What nonsense is that? Not that I didn't give her a copy of my lesson plan and materials, can't she just take them out and read what is my last part before leaving and before BRINGING THE SSD AWAY?!?!?!?! She wants to leave she can do so but not be a busybody to bring her away! Esp so when the ssd told me to improve on that part of the lesson of showing pupils' group work, she had to destroy it when I've done it!!!! Wah lau ehhhhhh!!! If only we teachers have a say to who are going to be promoted to the senior teacher level,I tell you I will raise my stand to how I suffered under her wrath. Unprofessional and lazy, and yet wants to claim the credit and get the recognition. can you stop being such a failure as a teacher. is that all you need? Fame and no effort? Title but no work? If your incapability is causing other's distress, please do sth about it and not just shirk and do nth! you do not know how much effort I've put in for a lesson ob, you do not know my personal expectations for my own lesson then don't come in and destroy it! Totally.............. and I'm so not going to get good feedback from the ssd, when I thought my lesson was really going on smoothly until this part.

sian to the max. Spoil my weekend totally.

>_<

spinning @_@

you know there was something wrong when you wake up to see the whole room spinning really hard. you know there was something wrong when the cup of water you drank down was vomited out the next minute. walked to school feeling so shaky and wobbly. Didn't have such encounter before. sis told me to take MC and rest at home. but the pupils' science revision papers were with me and I needed to go through with them. so I grit my teeth and went to school. Am glad to have nice colleagues asking and showing concern to me. Shan even bought me a packet of cai fan and made me a cup of milo. heart-warming really. went home at 3plus feeling so weird to leave sch so early. Took a half an hour nap and rushed to bathe n tuition..finally ended the day back on the bed. hopefully dizzy spells don't come find me tml morning when I wake up. the feeling is so terrible.

and I thought I could see you at the overhead bridge.

*poof*

when you know some leaders in school are so called leaders just because they are holding the title, you can't help but feel sick that they just don't deserve it.

it was really a tedious one today for the observation and when u know that one observer was just there physically and not helping, it just turns you off totally. Come on, show that you are a higher rank-to-be and don't just yearn for a title when you are yet to deserve it.

sian to the max.

last match of the season :)

my juniors and seniors played against their last opponent of the season yesterday. Juniors against Nan Hua, seniors against Hong Kah. I told them I will sit and just let them play and enjoy the game. Managed to let all players to have a try in the games as a promise that I've made. juniors, think they had fun, and I'm definitely very hopeful that they will become better next year. Seniors, I can't help but become very excited during their match because they nearly won Hong Kah Pri! wow, was a rather close fight in the first set, 21-25. My players were on fire, knowing that if they didn't win that game,it would be over for them this season. I saw how they fought and how they had intimidated their opponents. I'm really proud of them..and during their last ace together, Siti had to say thank you to me and made me cry!!!! T_T emo to the max....was trying to hold back my tears when I had a debrief with my players and I think Siti saw it, so she had to say the last part thanking me for the effort I put in. and that was it..will miss my seniors alot, and I thought they were really good after this period of intensive training. all I hope is that they can continue to play this sports and come back as an alumni again to play :')

CPS steady ace :)

my rongrong, my dearest him :)

he knows how i feel. my usual moody days. he knows it all and is all ready to cheer me up. the thought of coming to sch to fetch me home is heartwarming enough :')

love you so much <3

helpless towards her

not a good way to start off my week. with this particular one who has to be unreasonable in her words and how she belittles me as her girl's form teacher. she made me doubt myself if I really am pushing my pupils too hard..so much so that her girl suffered. even though it is a mere 3weeks into 4 of lessons. and while I thought I have been doing my best to work closely with my pupils' parents, she had to be the odd one out to think otherwise.

sigh. I foresee a bumpy road ahead with many more hurdles to cross. and I'm not sure if I will be able to last through the race.

and to think the one whom I respect the most seems to be showing favoritism only to those in her department, giving them the chance of the lesson ob away without considering me.

I suddenly feel so lonely in school once again.

But thanks to Mrs Chow for giving the volleyball key chain to me to brighten up my gloomy day a little.

:'(

first match :)

my boys going for their first match in 14hours time. their very first official match in their life. my very first official match to coach and guide as a teacher-coach. Can't explain my feelings now..a mixture of anxiety, hope and excitement.. It is like teaching a class and getting them ready for an examination. Just that this is a practical one. One that showcases how well they have learnt from me for the past few months. Of course, as a new cca, there are no expectations, no demand for any awards or recognition. But I am hopeful that my boys can possibly create a little bit of miracle and impress me even :)

Jiayou CPS! Jiayou Boys!!! :D

:)

my dear grace teared in front of me today. so troubled was she with her current bf. she's confused, fearful and full of uncertainty with her bf and wonders if she will be able to be with him for the rest of her life. And then she popped me the question which I had given her my answer, an answer which I've never been more sure and certain of.

yes, I've found the guy whom I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with :') someone whom I will love and care for for the rest of my life...

love you my rongrong :)

31 December 2012, the day of my life :)

my biggest surprise of my life.

my greatest joy of my life.

my happiest moment of my life thus far.

my first diamond ring.

haha. my rongrong proposed to me on this special day of ours, our 3rd year anniversary. He did catch me unaware cuz I was totally not predicting or guessing he will do anything so big on that day cuz I thought this wont come so soon......haha..but still, I was really greatly surprised when he unveiled the surprises one after another. no wonder he said he will plan the anniversary day outing, where we eat at, what we do and stuff like that..

we met at city hall to head down for lunch and proceeded to eat at marina square.. Then we went for the movie which was at 5pm (again he asked me what movie I want to watch when he had already booked the tix-_-) haha..so we watched The Hobbit, which I dozed off about 5 minutes at the beginning part cuz it was a tad too boring :p but I was wide awake after the exciting parts of the movie slowly come in..movie lasted for 3h, then after that we walked very fast, I emphasize again was VERY fast to the mrt..cuz apparently he had made a reservation at 8.30pm..we proceeded to the restaurant at Marriott hotel and ate at Pool Grill restaurant.. Until then I still didn't think so much cuz I just didn't think so much!! >_< haha..but the surprise came when we had to take the lift down but instead of taking lift down, rongrong asked me to take it up!! hahaha..that was then I keep laughing and screaming!! hahahaha..and of cuz, all was prepared well beforehand and inside the room already laid the surprise new luggage, code that was supposed to be 777 became 877 and that made me unable to unlock and see what was inside the luggage! until my rongrong had to try it himself, he then realized he had them lock keyed in wrongly! haha..so cute..and off he goes, opened the luggage and brought out the plastic purse for my ezy-link card..when my rongrong said there's one more stuff that I would receive, I was really very nervous! hahaha..also dun y but thought that was quite exciting! To know what was there for me but yet was waiting for the magic question! Rongrong said it after some laughing and tada!!!! My fiancé-to-be! :D

my most memorable countdown with him..will never forget that special day of ours..

I love you <3 (^_^)